Where to begin? I had a nice time seeing Michele, Justin, Mariah, Corey, Cole, and Cailyn this past weekend. I always love going to Mariah’s to see them. Bummer, that I only get the chance when Michele comes home from Alabama. Sami drove down with me. Michele is her favorite Aunt and Justin, Mariah, and Corey are favorite cousins.
Sami and Michele were discussing how I will never leave Mike. That I like the abuse. I wish it was as simple as just leaving him. But it’s not. I have been with him for over half my life. I am not working right now, my back. I know sounds like an excuse, and hey it probably is.
I just don’t know what to do. I have said that as soon as my kids are older. Well they are, and I am still here. Where does a woman go when she has no income, no place to live. How do you tell the man that you have been with for so many years that your leaving? I have left once before. But I came back. Mike promised me things would be different. And I believed him. Just like I did 13 yrs ago, when I dropped the divorce and moved up to Brainerd.
I am so confused. I don’t know what to do. The kids all see that we are not happy, I see, Mike has to see it. Do I just start packing my things, and tell Mike that I need out. Ask him to pay for a place for me to live? Maybe I should just find someone who would like a roommate. So one who would let me do housework, cooking, and cleaning, in lieu of rent.
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